Learning over break

My lesson over the break was a constant question from God saying, "do you trust me?" God kept placing me in situations that could have possibly had very difficult endings. The first of these situations was our delay in Denver that originally looked like we could have ended up in Denver over Christmas. The last of these situations was an ultrasound (of Ethan's baby brother) that revealed a cyst on the babys brain. Most of the time these cysts result in nothing and sometimes even just disappear, but occationally they are connected with a syndrome that would result in a late term death. In both of these situations and others like them, I clearly felt that God wanted me to trust him no matter what the outcome. God wanted me to trust Him that if I was in Denver for Christmas, it would be okay and that if I was to lose my baby, He would take care of me. These were some hard lessons to learn. It is amazing how I can know that God is in control cognitively, but how quickly I can lose trust that he is in control when things don't go as I would like or potentially aren't going to go as I would like. These were difficult life lessons, but also good life lessons. The type that break you and bring you to your knees. I am positive that this is only the first time my trust in God will be challenged. However I am realizing that God cares less about what we do than the condition of our heart when we do things. So even if somethings are stripped away, we can still hold on to the the truth that God remains in control.